如果說人的生命像是一個個格子組成，我的格子正在減少，這意味著生命的多樣性在塌縮，在愛好和需要打磨的職業(yè)技能之間，仿佛有道鴻溝，愛好無用但可愛，職業(yè)技能重要但枯燥無比。
人活著很多時候就要在四個象限內(nèi)摸索：重要且緊急、重要不緊急、不重要緊急、不重要不緊急。人生無非被這四類事情填充。
職業(yè)技能是重要且緊急的，愛好是不重要不緊急的。但是從惰性和偏愛上，你我都避重就輕，喜歡把自己安放在第四象限之中。
前幾天在圖書館翻到了R奧伊肯的《人生的意義與價值》一書，有句話大意是：人最好只和自己比較。我當(dāng)時眼前一亮，真想借來細(xì)讀，但終究放棄，全書太過晦澀，內(nèi)容艱深，而且放在新書區(qū)的，都是按照書友的意愿購買的，我又何必?fù)屓怂鶒邸W伊肯說這番話的時間，大約在1910年代。
前幾天，看了快遞小哥奪取詩詞大會冠軍的新聞，準(zhǔn)確的講，這條新聞被360度解讀，刷屏了微信朋友圈，但是激勵作用明顯，我又一次打開了心愛的英語APP，配音、背誦，過一下嘴癮和眼癮。盡管這輩子英語對我的價值，可能僅僅限于愛好，但是絲毫不影響我對她的癡情一片。
是的，我很渺小，而且越來越渺小，但是誰也奪不走我繼續(xù)學(xué)習(xí)的決心。有了初始加速度，就有了做下去的勇氣。
上面這張圖是一款叫做百詞斬的軟件，寓教于樂，我已經(jīng)堅持使用了480多天，我相信，集腋成裘，積沙成塔。
有個九五后的學(xué)友，每天發(fā)一段英語詩歌給我，搭配以她自己翻譯的漢語，我驚訝于長江后浪推前浪的成績，她的精心翻譯，遠(yuǎn)超于我，令我汗顏。更要命的是，她的小說寫得也很棒。其實想一想，歌德寫浮士德，也不過在20多歲，曹禺寫《雷雨》也是二十出頭。
在這里，應(yīng)她的要求，我朗讀一篇今天發(fā)送的內(nèi)容，既是鼓勵自己，也是鼓勵95后學(xué)友加油。因為她的未來不可限量。
The RISK OF LOVE
There is a risk involved in everything
Every time you share a smile
Every time you shed a tear
You are opening yourself up to hurt.
Some people tread slowly through life,
Avoiding the closeness risk brings,
Sidestepping the things they can not understand
Turning away from those who care too much
Those who care stay too long,
Those who hold too tightly.
There is never an easy way to love
You cannot approach it cautiously
It will not wait for you to arm yourself.
It does not care if you turn away
It is everywhere, it is everything.
Love is the greatest of all risks.
It is not reliable, it is not cautious,
It is not sympathetic
It is unprejudiced and unmerciful.
It strikes the strongest of mind,
And brings them to their knees in one blow.
Even in the best of times, love hurts.
It hurts to need, it hurts to belong,
It hurts to be the other part of someone else,
Without either of your consent.
But, from the moment it overtakes you,
It hurts worse to be all alone.
The risk of love never depletes;
It grows stronger and more dangerous with time.
But, it is in the total surrender of all defense,
That we, no matter weak or strong,
No matter willing or captive,
No matter what, we truly experience love.
Despite the many things love is not,
Outweighing it all are the things that love is.
Love is surrender without a loss.
It is a gift without the cost.
It consumes your every thought and desire,
Every breath you take.
It is the fire that fuels you
To do more than pass through life;
It urges you, instead, to live.
No matter the outcome, having felt love,
You will never be the same.
It may scar your heart and soul
And leave you only memories of forever.
Or, it may cause every day of your life
To feel like there is no need for tomorrow.
But, love is worth it. It is worth the risk...
For in all of life,
Love is truly the only risk worth taking.
生活也把我的時間切割的支離破碎，如同雷海為一般，在見縫插針的學(xué)習(xí)英語。但也許，只是也許，未來的某一天，這項我精心打磨的技能會迸發(fā)出火花。
